📖 Scripture
“…for he that touches you touches the apple of His eye.” — Zechariah 2:8 (NKJV)
Pain has a way of stripping you of dignity.
That day, it stripped me of everything.
It was one of my worst sickle cell crises. Every inch of my body screamed. Turning on the bed felt like bones grinding against fire. Even breathing required effort.
I was admitted to a hospital in Nigeria, alone in a private room. My husband—then a junior doctor—was constantly on call. He came when he could, but most times, it was just me… and the pain.
IV fluids dripped slowly into my veins. Nurses came in occasionally, but not often enough to notice the silent battles I was fighting.
Then I felt it—the urgent need to urinate.
A nurse walked in just then, and I thought help had finally arrived.
“Please… can I have a bedpan?” I asked weakly.
She looked at me—no compassion, just irritation.
“Can’t you get up and go to the bathroom?”
Tears filled my eyes. “I… I can’t walk.”
Reluctantly, she brought the bedpan. But the way she handled me—rough, dismissive, almost annoyed—intensified not just my physical pain, but something deeper… emotional pain.
In that moment, I felt less than human.
I cried.
Not just from pain—but from humiliation.
And in that brokenness, I whispered a dangerous prayer:
“God… please just take me. I don’t want to live like this.”
But heaven was silent.
God did not answer that prayer.
Two months later, I returned to the same hospital—and saw something chilling.
An obituary.
Her obituary.
The same nurse.
Gone.
They said it was a brief illness.
I stood there… stunned.
And a question echoed in my heart:
Was God fighting for me?
I never prayed for her death. Not once.
But in that moment, I understood something deeper than I ever had before:
When you are God’s own, even what touches you does not go unnoticed.
Even when you are too weak to defend yourself…
God steps in.
🙏 Praise Declaration
Today, I praise God for fighting my battles—even when I am too weak, too broken, or too silent to fight for myself.
💭 Pain2Gain Reflection
Sometimes God’s protection doesn’t look like immediate relief—it looks like divine justice, unseen defense, and silent intervention.
You may feel ignored, mistreated, or forgotten… but heaven is not blind.
If you belong to God, you are the apple of His eye.
And He takes it personal.
